Something New

Thanks for the love folks.

Yesterday I went smoke free. No one was injured.
I made it back to work and got things accomplished. Again, no one was injured.
I realized I eat about 2500 calories a day without even thinking I am eating anything at all. Slight injury to my ego.

Ouch. No wonder I am gaining/ staying the same.

So, for me to lose and be in a healthy range, I should eat between 800-1200 cals a day. I have signed up on fit day to track food. I have to remember all those licks and tastes and bites are FOOD=Calories. I eat the equivalent of 1 WLS meal while preparing my meal.

And now that I realize I am doing it-- it's done.

I was on the Wii Fit this morning at 6:30am. I went to bed last night at 10:30pm. I don't feel tired, but instead refreshed. Add sleeping 8 hours to the list of good habits.

This week, I am focusing on monitoring my habits. What it is I am doing. There is no race, I have to get it out of my head that I am in some kind of countdown of weightloss. This surgery is forever, it is up to me to use it appropriately. Why yes, there are so many shoulds, however, for today I am monitoring, doing what it is I know to do.

A year ago I hadn't eaten chocolate. Yesterday I gave away a box at work. Just because it fits/ is at a discount/ given to me doesn't mean I have to buy/eat/ wear it. I can make my own choice, a conscienous choice.

That's what it is, choosing conscienously. Being present to what it is I am doing or about to do.

Lesson for the day, be present. Be smoke free day 2. Be the best Kim I can be.